i was determine,
i was so sure.
but the tone and the face,
melts it all away.
enlighten me if it's Your way.
<3,
-pRiS-
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
God is Good
all the time.
Yesterday (10/11/2010), was the most dramatic experience in my life.
Subconsciously I've had this thought that how can people be late for exam. if you know me I'm one who takes exam seriously. and yesterday, i snapped up at 10 past only to realised that I was late for my paper (which started at 9.20am).
I'm so ashamed of myself but I'm going to tell the whole world this experience because I wanna share with you God's SOVEREIGNTY.
As I jumped out of bed, I quickly changed and ran out of the apartment, I tried calling for a cab but it took ages to reach the operator and when he finally came to the line he said i had to wait for 5-15mins for the cab to arrive. I had no time to lose. so i decided to run all the way to Hilton to catch a cab there as it'll be faster. However, when i was at the cross junction, there was a cab waiting for the traffic light. I went into the cab in the middle of the road (not to mention, it's in front of the magistrate court, and there was a police car in front of it). Nvm the trivial law breaking. anyway, when I reached the exam hall it was 10.35. I was an hour late for my exam!
The invigilator did not let me in because she said students are allowed to go out of the exam hall after half and hour. She said i needed to see my lecturer. I was DEVASTATED. I knew i could do nothing more besides praying and praying and praying. I did ask God why and debated with myself. but in the end i made a mental note that, in the long run, even though we might not understand what we went through, I'm sure God has His perfect plan. and something Aunty Merilyn said came into my mind: "if you break the law of gravity, you take the consequences". so it's me that break the rule, so i have to bear with the consequences.
So, I walked to the bus stop with all the worse feeling ever in my heart. I felt so burden, so mad at myself, so devastated. the bus stop is not very near but not that far from the entrance of the exam hall. but normally if the bus is already at the bus stop when u step out of the entrance of the exam hall, you wouldn't be able to make it. So that's wat i thought. i was expecting to wait for the next bus. HOWEVER, the bus was still there when i reach the bus stop. The bus driver was reading a book. I din't have the mood to think about my surroundings at that time. so what i wanted to do was just to go and look for my lecturer and hopefully sort this thing out. I thought that, in the worse case, i just have to retake the subject next sem.
I reached uni about 11+am. i went to the front office of the professions building for the lecturer. I thought it was the old man who did the lecturing, however i found out it's not him, it's another lady that's the course coordinator. The front office lady told me she might not be in today. but i thought, what could go worse already. So i just gave it a try. God is good. She was there. When i went in, i couldnt take it anymore and broke into tears. She was upset for me. She asked me what was the reason i was late and hinted me that it should be a compassionate or medical reason for me to take a supplementary paper. however, i didn't make up any story, and i just told her nothing but the truth.
So, i'm not eligible for supplementary paper. she thought for awhile, got up and went out of the office, probably ask a few people. then she so kindly decided that she'll let me do my exam there!! She look at the time and decided since the exam is not finished yet when i see her, so she ask me if i've seen anyone who came out of the exam early. and i answer in negative. then, she allowed me to take the exam. She trusted me that she din't even be there when i do my exam paper. she just put me in a room, and asked me to submit the paper in a sealed envelope to her "letter box" in the building itself. and she went off for a meeting. She gave me 10 minutes before for me to calm myself down and clear my mind, before the exam started.
I was so grateful. although there's a few question that i wish i had longer time to deal with, i kept to the time. I was grateful enough and din't want to do anything wrong. and so, there concluded my exam. If not for the course coordinator gracious allowance, I would have failed the course and have to retake it.
I called my mum while i was trying to catch a cab. My mum later told me she was so worried that she tried to call my dad and for half an hour she can't reach him because he was in Bali having a meeting. She then called her cell leader and prayed for me. She said she couldn't do anything but just praying.
I thank God that He had bless me and show me His sovereignty and how he showed me the way of Depending on Him totally. That was the time i know i am unable to do anything to help the situation and He showed me the miracle. He blew my mind away. it's no way that i'll believe in uni u made such mistake and still be able to save it urself. That's why i don't believe karma does everything. I believe it's God's grace. if it's karma alone, I would failed the entire course already.
Thank you Jesus for bringing me through the day. Despite my human weakness, You showed me your perfect timing and perfect grace. I did nothing to deserve all this, but by God's grace i'm saved. Amen.
<3,
God's daughter,
-pRiS-
p/s: God answers prayer. DEFINITELY.
p/s/s: u can imagine my panic/nervous/devastation from the entry.
Yesterday (10/11/2010), was the most dramatic experience in my life.
Subconsciously I've had this thought that how can people be late for exam. if you know me I'm one who takes exam seriously. and yesterday, i snapped up at 10 past only to realised that I was late for my paper (which started at 9.20am).
I'm so ashamed of myself but I'm going to tell the whole world this experience because I wanna share with you God's SOVEREIGNTY.
As I jumped out of bed, I quickly changed and ran out of the apartment, I tried calling for a cab but it took ages to reach the operator and when he finally came to the line he said i had to wait for 5-15mins for the cab to arrive. I had no time to lose. so i decided to run all the way to Hilton to catch a cab there as it'll be faster. However, when i was at the cross junction, there was a cab waiting for the traffic light. I went into the cab in the middle of the road (not to mention, it's in front of the magistrate court, and there was a police car in front of it). Nvm the trivial law breaking. anyway, when I reached the exam hall it was 10.35. I was an hour late for my exam!
The invigilator did not let me in because she said students are allowed to go out of the exam hall after half and hour. She said i needed to see my lecturer. I was DEVASTATED. I knew i could do nothing more besides praying and praying and praying. I did ask God why and debated with myself. but in the end i made a mental note that, in the long run, even though we might not understand what we went through, I'm sure God has His perfect plan. and something Aunty Merilyn said came into my mind: "if you break the law of gravity, you take the consequences". so it's me that break the rule, so i have to bear with the consequences.
So, I walked to the bus stop with all the worse feeling ever in my heart. I felt so burden, so mad at myself, so devastated. the bus stop is not very near but not that far from the entrance of the exam hall. but normally if the bus is already at the bus stop when u step out of the entrance of the exam hall, you wouldn't be able to make it. So that's wat i thought. i was expecting to wait for the next bus. HOWEVER, the bus was still there when i reach the bus stop. The bus driver was reading a book. I din't have the mood to think about my surroundings at that time. so what i wanted to do was just to go and look for my lecturer and hopefully sort this thing out. I thought that, in the worse case, i just have to retake the subject next sem.
I reached uni about 11+am. i went to the front office of the professions building for the lecturer. I thought it was the old man who did the lecturing, however i found out it's not him, it's another lady that's the course coordinator. The front office lady told me she might not be in today. but i thought, what could go worse already. So i just gave it a try. God is good. She was there. When i went in, i couldnt take it anymore and broke into tears. She was upset for me. She asked me what was the reason i was late and hinted me that it should be a compassionate or medical reason for me to take a supplementary paper. however, i didn't make up any story, and i just told her nothing but the truth.
So, i'm not eligible for supplementary paper. she thought for awhile, got up and went out of the office, probably ask a few people. then she so kindly decided that she'll let me do my exam there!! She look at the time and decided since the exam is not finished yet when i see her, so she ask me if i've seen anyone who came out of the exam early. and i answer in negative. then, she allowed me to take the exam. She trusted me that she din't even be there when i do my exam paper. she just put me in a room, and asked me to submit the paper in a sealed envelope to her "letter box" in the building itself. and she went off for a meeting. She gave me 10 minutes before for me to calm myself down and clear my mind, before the exam started.
I was so grateful. although there's a few question that i wish i had longer time to deal with, i kept to the time. I was grateful enough and din't want to do anything wrong. and so, there concluded my exam. If not for the course coordinator gracious allowance, I would have failed the course and have to retake it.
I called my mum while i was trying to catch a cab. My mum later told me she was so worried that she tried to call my dad and for half an hour she can't reach him because he was in Bali having a meeting. She then called her cell leader and prayed for me. She said she couldn't do anything but just praying.
I thank God that He had bless me and show me His sovereignty and how he showed me the way of Depending on Him totally. That was the time i know i am unable to do anything to help the situation and He showed me the miracle. He blew my mind away. it's no way that i'll believe in uni u made such mistake and still be able to save it urself. That's why i don't believe karma does everything. I believe it's God's grace. if it's karma alone, I would failed the entire course already.
Thank you Jesus for bringing me through the day. Despite my human weakness, You showed me your perfect timing and perfect grace. I did nothing to deserve all this, but by God's grace i'm saved. Amen.
<3,
God's daughter,
-pRiS-
p/s: God answers prayer. DEFINITELY.
p/s/s: u can imagine my panic/nervous/devastation from the entry.
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