C'est le vie

People come and go in your life.
Some are around you but you don't see them often.
Some are far away from you but you keep each other updated.
Some who are not catching up regularly but still close to your heart.
Some who are going away and you wish they stay.
Some who you have a love-hate relationship with.
Some you know you want them but still push them away.
Some left your life due to miscommunication.
And some loves you no matter what you do and where you are.

C'est le vie!

PERFECT

God is indeed perfect. Once again, I've experience his grace and mercy. I'm so glad I waited.

It was last week, during my exams, I wanted to book my airticket to Melbourne to have biometric scan appointment (just one of the things you have to do to apply for student visa, and Adelaide doesn't have British Embassy, sad i know). Anyway, I was told to wait until Friday before making any decision. I prayed to God, if you were to send me the acceptance letter of University by Friday, I'll book the airticket immediately to Melbourne, if not, I really didnt know what to do.

Friday (11th Nov) came, alas the acceptance didn't. I had property exam the next day, so I didnt think much. I was worried about it, but I thought to myself, worse come to worse, I'll just have to stay in Australia for a longer period of time, less time in Malaysia and a possibility of no family holiday end of the year (my mum said she'll leave me at home while all of them go on holiday). So, I decided to finish my exam before doing anything. At the thought of me not able to go home for a long time, mum offered to call the British Embassy in Malaysia. Since she was busy, she only did it on Monday and told me about it on Tuesday, after my exam.

She told me I can not apply for a visa. I was skeptical. HOW can you NOT have a STUDENT VISA when you are going to study there???!!! my friend who went needed one (Vietnam passport holder), and it did not occur to me that I REALLY DIDNT have to. I called the embassy today (16th Nov 2011, Wednesday) and confirmed I really don't need a student visitor visa to go to the UK because I'm a Malaysian passport holder. I was thrilled. ECSTATIC. because, that means I can fly home very sooon instead of being stranded in Aus indefinitely until i get my visa done.

So afterwards, I just continue doing things and went out to the beach and have a good time with three other friends. When I came home, i felt the urge to check my student email. and guess what's next? I SAW ADELAIDE ABROAD SENT ME AN EMAIL REGARDING BIRMINGHAM ACCEPTANCE. *GASP* I clicked open and I've been accepted! even though i know I probably get the acceptance, but the wait kind of make the you feel incomplete and have some reserve. But now! It's here!! I can't stop smiling.

I really thank God for his perfect timing. IF i've gotten my acceptance last week, I wouldn't have called the embassy or my mum wouldn't have called the embassy to find out I don't actually need the student visitor visa. and I would have waste quite a large sum of money by going there and have to wait for another (at least) two weeks before getting my passport back for the visa application to be completed. I thank God for his PERFECT TIMING. The timing is too perfect. and only God can do it. If i had let my impatience get into the way and booked my ticket, only to find out i didnt have to spend that sum of money, i'll be cursing myself for being such a fool.

And so, i've got most things done. I need to apply for accommodation and run some bank errands. and that's it! I'M ON MY WAY TO UK. Thank you Jesus. Thank you everyone who have been praying for me and praying alongside with me.I really appreciate that and I know God does hear your prayers for me. :)

God is ever faithful.

Signing off,
Pris.

F.R.I.E.N.D.

What kind of friend i am? I feel so irritate with myself for expecting things from people around me. I need to learn how to stop expecting. stop justifying what i do is right. It might be right in my point of view, but others might not see eye in eye with me. I just wish I can be more "flexible" in the sense that i dont rigid things to go only one way. It's for sure tiring when i try to accommodate the reaction of the rest in one event. and frustrating at times too. I'm not even talking about deep stuff like our point of views in life, its just friends keeping the promise they make, like sticking to a dinner plan, or not being half an hour late. SIGH.

I remember a friend once told me he didn't want to reach to a point where he stop expecting others. I vaguely remember that particular conversation, but yea, i can feel what he felt right now. Mind you, this is not the first time. I've been agitated by this recurring feeling almost my whole life. so i don't think it's the people around me, it's me who needs to change, and not expect. Or perhaps, i haven't been close to this kind of people. I guess i need to be one in order to meet one.

I know i'm not the most punctual or the most reliable person on earth, but i know when i need to. i hope i havent make some of you feel this way. If i do, i'm truly sorry. I'll try my best to be good from now. If i'm not showing up, i'll tell you.

NTS: patience patience patience.. i'm imperfect myself, thank you for everyone who still loves me. thank you God for loving me.

Frustration over Emotion

I seriously dislike myself being so overpowered by my emotions.
I feel weak-and-needy.

iwannarunaway.mayberunintoyourarms.

God, please help me. :(

Ugh

I'm under stress/panic attack.
CRAP.
I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACKK.
more like
I do not want to face the PILED UP WORK.
kill me already.

Bye home sweet home,
i will definitely miss u. :(

its time like these that i question is such education really necessary?
YES IT IS.

kthxbye.

When you grow weary, you stop, you reflect, you wish...

When life is moving at the speed of light, there's so much i want to achieve, so much i want to try. 

But sometimes, a hug, a shoulder or just a cuddle will make my day.

Of course, massage will definitely be a good option. :)

cheers,

pris

WICKED - the musical

I better jot down this awesome experience before I move on. I want to remember this experience for life! (or i'm just doing this because i'm procrastinating from doing my take-home exam. XP)

let's not talk about something as bore as Contracts Take Home Exam which is due tomorrow. let's talk about WICKED!

WICKED!

Musicals and I never cross path when I was young, if you leave out Marry Poppins, Sister Acts... okay, but that's all on tv! This is my first (as far as i remember, i might have watch one or two unknowns) musical ever! see, i'm a rather a classics-deprived kid when i was younger. It just wasnt in my school culture to know about Dorothy. but ever since i take up literature, I enjoyed them much. 

Let me not sway too far away and get back to Wicked, i've enjoyed it so much. It was so so so so so AMAZING! A big thank you note to Cheryl who initiated the urge to watch it in Sydney last year and Suet! for telling me all about it, hence, leading me to buy a A$116 ticket. let me tell you, it's worth EVERY-SINGLE-PENNY! okay, maybe we use cent here, but u get what i mean. :)

There's so many scenes that I love, the part where Elphaba met Gah-linda, when they became roommate- the song they sung (What Is This Feeling) was full of humor;and then how Glinda be-friended with Elphaba and giving Elphaba a makeover, "Popular"; and the part where Elphaba figure she was in love with Fiyero, "I'm Not That Girl"; Elphaba's conversation with Doctor Dillamond (the goat professor), "Something Bad"; n oh! Elphaba and Glinda's parting scene of course! "Defying Gravity" and so much more. I love every single detail of this musical. Their dances was good as well. They have fast pace couple dance. Where the choreography was fun and lively...

This musical is full of emotion, sense of humour, moral values, good looking casts (Fiyero was quite cute! and even the flying monkey (after taking off his mask) was so good looking!; and Elphaba, you can see her beautiful face even though she dint have extra glamorous costumes and green appearance, she still look so great.)

I listened to the songs a few months before i watch this musical BUT the songs speak so differently after the musical, it's like every word have a deeper meaning in it. :)

Alright, I shall end this post with one of my favourite scene and song, the song just before intermission, where they ended the first half perfectly with Elphaba leaving on a broom:

Defying Gravity:

GLINDA 
(spoken) Elphaba - why couldn't you have stayed calm for 
once, instead of flying off the handle! 
(sung) I hope you're happy! 
I hope you're happy now 
I hope you're happy how you 
Hurt your cause forever 
I hope you think you're clever! 

ELPHABA 
I hope you're happy 
I hope you're happy, too 
I hope you're proud how you 
Would grovel in submission 
To feed your own ambition 

BOTH 
So though I can't imagine how 
I hope you're happy right now 

GLINDA 
(spoken) Elphie, listen to me. Just say you're sorry: 
(sung) You can still be with the Wizard 
What you've worked and waited for 
You can have all you ever wanted: 

ELPHABA 
(spoken) I know: 
(sung) But I don't want it - 
No - I can't want it 
Anymore: 

Something has changed within me 
Something is not the same 
I'm through with playing by the rules 
Of someone else's game 
Too late for second-guessing 
Too late to go back to sleep 
It's time to trust my instincts 
Close my eyes: and leap! 

It's time to try 
Defying gravity 
I think I'll try 
Defying gravity 
And you can't pull me down! 

GLINDA 
Can't I make you understand? 
You're having delusions of grandeur: 

ELPHABA 
I'm through accepting limits 
''cause someone says they're so 
Some things I cannot change 
But till I try, I'll never know! 
Too long I've been afraid of 
Losing love I guess I've lost 
Well, if that's love 
It comes at much too high a cost! 
I'd sooner buy 
Defying gravity 
Kiss me goodbye 
I'm defying gravity 
And you can't pull me down: 
(spoken) Glinda - come with me. Think of what we could 
do: together. 

(sung) Unlimited 
Together we're unlimited 
Together we'll be the greatest team 
There's ever been 

Glinda - 
Dreams, the way we planned 'em 

GLINDA 
If we work in tandem: 

BOTH 
There's no fight we cannot win 
Just you and I 
Defying gravity 
With you and I 
Defying gravity 

ELPHABA 
They'll never bring us down! 
(spoken) Well? Are you coming? 

GLINDA 
I hope you're happy 
Now that you're choosing this 

ELPHABA 
(spoken) You too 
(sung) I hope it brings you bliss 

BOTH 
I really hope you get it 
And you don't live to regret it 
I hope you're happy in the end 
I hope you're happy, my friend: 

ELPHABA So if you care to find me 
Look to the western sky! 
As someone told me lately: 
"Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly!" 
And if I'm flying solo 
At least I'm flying free 
To those who'd ground me 
Take a message back from me 
Tell them how I am 
Defying gravity 
I'm flying high 
Defying gravity 
And soon I'll match them in renown 
And nobody in all of Oz 
No Wizard that there is or was 
Is ever gonna bring me down! 

GLINDA 
I hope you're happy! 

CITIZENS OF OZ 
Look at her, she's wicked! 
Get her! 

ELPHABA 
:Bring me down! 

CITIZENS OF OZ 
No one mourns the wicked 
So we've got to bring her 

ELPHABA 
Ahhh! 

CITIZENS OF OZ 
Down!

<3 wicked,

-pris

Hidden

There's this struggle in me
that i don't know how to express;
there's this feeling in me
that i don't know how to surpress.

What have i done or not done?
What is the right choice?
or is there none?

Afraid of the results,
stepping back with a celerity.
Will you be taken aback
when you are cognizant of who i really am?

It's the season of uncertainty,
hovering with anciety.

pris

Remain

When there's pain in our hearts
It's so easy to forget
All the things that You've done
All the things that You've said

There's a promise You've made
That You're with me through the night
Having You is worth all the heardest fights

(so) i'll remain in Your love
I want and need no other
(cause) You're my friend, You're my Lord
Through You i have the Father
You're the vine, i'm the branch
Through You all things grow
In Your love, i'll remain.

Greater love has no one
Than to die for a friend
And You did this for me
With a love that never ends

You have taken my sins
When You died on that day
And now i will choose no other way

(so) i'll remain in Your love

I want and need no other

(cause) You're my friend, You're my Lord

Through You i have the Father

You're the vine, i'm the branch

Through You all things grow

In Your love, i'll remain.

Apart from You there's nothing we can do

All the fruits we bear, all the blessings is from You

Show me Your love, and show me how to love

To glorify the Risen King above

(so) i'll remain in Your love

I want and need no other

(cause) You're my friend, You're my Lord

Through You i have the Father

You're the vine, i'm the branch

Through You all things grow

In Your love, i'll remain.

by Joseph Yuen

Sated

it's time to get on with working towards the resolutions.

pris

Clinging on

As much as I would love to meet new people and encounter new experiences,
a part of me doesn't want to let go of the past,
doesn't want to move on,
and clinging on ...
to the memories that people have given me.
The same memories that will continue ...
Alas, individuals have different interests.

Time to learn how to move on.

pris