Bye 2009, Hello 2010

There were so many thoughts that I wanted to put it down. But sadly, when i finally get the time and the line for me to blog, i couldnt remember a single thing. I should jot it down next time. Well, I should've done it all the while.

2009 has come to an end. So quickly, so unknowingly.
This year, like I've mentioned, is definitely one of my BEST years.
Probably the changing phase that I was and am in.
The freedom and trust that I was granted.
The friends that I am blessed with.
The people that I've encountered.
I've learnt much, thought much, and been through much.
The growth is obvious, including physically of course.
I thank God for what He has blessed me with,
and still believing and trusting Him.
Amen!

I'm looking forward to 2010 as much as I want to hold on to 2009. University which once seemed so far away from me, has finally come into reality. Yes, I'm going to university already. I'm keeping my finger cross and hope for a greater year. And of course to experience more growth (EXCEPT THE PHYSICAL ONE PLEASE).

Being in the fantasy,
treated like a royalty,
It's like locking up the reality.
Looking out from where u are,
count your blessings!
Many who doesnt have one hundredth or even thounsandth of what you have,
and I'm not exaggerating.
yes, indeed
giving is only easy til a certain extend,
and there's plenty to learn.
Little can you give means much to them.

Being in Laos and Cambodia again, made me see how much those ppl need help once more. I always tend to forget how blessed am I and wanting more. Hope they will come to know Christ one day.

ps: HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS.
pss: I miss Adelaide, and of coz my Adelaide peeps. Adelaide wouldnt be the same without you people.
psss: Bye 2009. Hello 2010.

<3,
-pRiS-

Is this that?

There was once a prophesied,
It's this what it is?
When our thoughts differ.
I shall follow the plan.
For He knows what's the best.
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Praise God for the results that He has given me. Without His strength, this is not possible. Thank God for His grace. n of course, the brothers and sisters in Christ who have been praying for me. I'm truly touched n grateful. =)

<3
-pRiS-

yes, no?

Til now i still dont have a decent photo of all of us.

Three papers down, two more to go. math was serious disappointment. hope the rest is okay. *keeping my finger cross and praying hard* Thanks peeps for praying for me. so many emotion & prayer supports. <3 Thank God for that! =)
It's December once more. so quickly. it's time to bid farewell? well, this year is definitely an unforgetable n productive one. One that I can look back n smile. okay, I shouldnt write the end-of-the-year-reflecting-speech, just yet.

p/s: i lost my sunnies. =( i'm missing it. ='( hope i still can find it after it disappeared for two weeks? sob.

<3
-pRiS-

He is love.

God is responsible for everything He allows.

Choosing the right path when diverging roads come, determines what you are going to gain or lose.

If you stick around long enough, having faith, surely things will turn around, and when you finally throw light as to why things happened, you'll manage a smile from the bottom of your heart.

It's always Happy Ending.

=)

p/s: I'm still digesting part of this sermon by Sy Rogers. not quite fully comprehending.

-pRiS-

All in Thy's hand.

Fascinated, Delighted, Amazed
When it all dawn on me at once,
My perception is again awaken.
Everything happens for a purpose
especially in Thee's timing.
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I'm in awe on how negligible and little pieces of events that I dont seem to understand why I'd encounter that particular moment become clear. I always believe that everything happens for a purpose. and in fact it does. =)

Last friday I have this peculiar acquaintance who traumatized me (for more info, ask me personally). I didn't know how will it affect me or affect that person at that moment. I thought its just God showed me how my friends cared for me, how our bonding getting stronger and stronger. But it did not just end there. I've been able to use it as a material to talk about in my assignment. I dont know precisely how n when it'll affect the people that I've told or the people that my friends tell them; even more, how our short conversation transform this acquaintance life. It's amazing how this little incident is going to affect many people. Through me nothing is possible, but I believe God arrange in this particular way that events happen is always for a purpose. Maybe we wouldn't see the results or the blooming of flowers now, but I believe one day, it'll come in handy. 

Another instance. I saw a fight today on street. I dont know how should I react. Call the police? walk up to talk to them? But at this crucial time, I chose to walk away. I took the other route to avoid passing them by. I choose the selfish way. I don't know how it ended, hopefully no one got hurt. Though I did not help them, This incident kept playing in my head. It made me think. Especially just 1 or 2 weeks before, my psychology class required us to do an experiment on social behaviour. My psyc teacher mention about some example on people fighting and there is nobody there to help. So I guess today's experience came in handy. =P 

It's fascinating isn't it? I still remember when I was younger I always get thrilled over what I've learn and be able to apply into real life. I still do now. and its good to be once reminded that God put every situation in our lives for a purpose. And that's how we are mould into who we are today. 

Not comprehending, not having the slightest clue why we are going through tough times? So that you'll  adequate for something bigger & greater. We'll be content with what we have every moment. And when the moment u comprehend why such things had happened, u'll be glad. More than glad. 

hold on, there's always a better tomorrow. =)

<3

-pRiS-

I care

Thoughts are like streams rushing and gushing into the ocean Leaving no space to breathe
Succumbing to the pressure exert
Drowning into unconciousness.

A flip, A push or A struggle,
Just a tiny action;
Brought surface back into picture
The effulgent sun never seems so shimmering,
The belligerent wind never seems so refreshing.

Your inquiries brought me into doubt
I seek, I search and I found.
Chances did not allow me to speak
Fast enough for you to understand, to apprehend and to perceive.
And now,
You brought chagrin into the picture.

A flip, A push or A struggle,
Just a tiny act for you to persevere
On what you believe and trust.
But now,
You've turn it all around.

I hope, I wish and I pray
that its all just a fallacious breeze.
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It has been quite some time since I blog let alone attempt a poem. I dont really think its a poem. but still hope its not too bad. Just need to shrug off my thoughts and get back to work. EXAM less than 6 WEEKS. ugh. better go now.

ps: i butt into ur business its just simply bcoz i care n i love all of u.

<3
-pRiS-

love.emptiness.best friend?

Am currently doing psyc research on interpersonal relationship. it brought me thinking why are people searching for love/courship and feel despair when we decided to give up on it. Do we not have the same foundation for us to stay together? I wonder. anyway, the post below was posted at my xanga blog few days ago, when i dint have courage to post it up here. now that i post because it occured to me that if i'm ashame of what i believe, will i be me in front of others? so yeah, there u go.



"
 What do you think the difference about Christians, Sunday Christians and Non-Christians?

Observations taught me that nowadays, many people have this emptiness in their hearts. Yes, we might have many things, yet, something within us is missing. Searching, longing and failing to find this missing piece of our life, i guess, many doesnt know, that the love of God, the presence of God is what fills that emptiness.

Personally, i find myself swaying between true christian and sunday christian/friday ocfer category. I guess thats y, sometimes i felt there's something missing in me, even i'm very happy about something or has achieved something. Then, i'll question myself : "So what now?". The happy, excited or proud moments will eventually come to an end, and become our memories. It is impossible for us to keep the present forever. We couldn't live in our memories, time will move on even without our consent. Whereas, if Jesus is in the picture, we know that it's Him who died for us so that we may live, n have a chance of looking towards eternity. It's Jesus, who took up our cross, our sins, n use his blood to wash away the impurities in us, so that we may be forgiven.

"For God so love the world that he gave his only beloved son, so that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal live." John 3:16

Jesus is the one that will heal our hurts, n fill the emptiness. He will never fail us, even when we are in our deepest darkness. This is what the Lord has promised.

"Even if I go through the deepest darkness, I will not be afraid, Lord, for you are with me. Your shepherd's rod and staff protect me." Psalm 23:4

Me, as a friend to many, i still have a high chance of failing to help out, for i'm still far from perfect. But Jesus is the one best friend that you will never need to be afraid that He'll fail us, for He will always be there.

"And I will be with you always, to the end of the age." Matthew 28:20b                                           "

He hold our hands to walk through the toughest timeS.

<3
-pRiS-

<3

We may have different past,
diverging futures,
but the memories we create will belong to us
and us only.

=)
<3
-pRiS-

PMS

i hate it when it comes to this time of the month.
having mood swings isn't particularly what i need now.
i'd finished the twilight series. The story lines is what i love so much.
I was akin to living in fantasy when i'm in the story.
it felt good. yet i know it's not real.
i sort of felt an emptiness like how things i'm after come to an end.
another reason to further these swings of my mood.
i've to keep in mind that all these are fiction,
no matter how surreal it seemed.
ah, Edward n Bella,
happily ever after.

ps: sorry if my mood affected urs too. i'm really having a hard time dealing with rationality and emotions during this time of the month.

Conjecture

I don't know if I have the faintest idea.
It just seem wrong to me.
Hope my intuition has failed me this time.
It's developing the wrong way. from wat i reckon.

<3
-pRiS-

Priority

Seasons Change, God never does.

How could I possibly forgot my priority?
I should have remember this all the while,
Thank God that He once again reminded me about that.
Thanks for loving me even when I'm being unlovable as always.
 
<3
-pRiS-

Feelings

Feelings,
what are they?
One that intricate the way you make decisions?

Feelings,
how credible are they?
How far can we trust?


Feelings change.
Will our decision differ if our feelings alter en route?
How far then will it determined our destiny?


What if we feel we should do this and indeed we should have done the other?
When we feel something is right, are we really right?
Or was it just our feeling at that moment?


Are we putting ourselves in jeopardy if we flow totally with our feelings?
They aren't akin to common sense, are they?


Oh, feelings,
elated, moody, excited, bored, love, hatred........................
if we just make a itsy-bitsy conversion,
things will be different, wouldn't they?


Just like
anger can kill,
hatred can curse,
excitement can make us fall in love and
agape which can be such selfless, so incompatible from others.


Feelings,
can never be separated from us,
even when we feel numb,
it is still a feeling.


We can’t be separated from feelings,
Can we?
It’s either we feel this or that.
Its either we follow the obliged ones or the rebellious ones.
How true is all these?
I don’t have the tiniest clue.
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It's just a random thought for me to make a random post. i'm not sure how true is all these nor it is biblical. just to make you think abit. uh huh. if you are reading it. =P anyway, officially having my last break for foundation year. how time passes so quickly. i'm glad it's a significant year.

later,
<3
-pRiS-

ps: i believe that if we just depend on feelings solely, everything wouldn't last.

a significant one

Cool and chilly wind dwindles away under the effulgent sun

A tinge of loathness to relinquish the nigh end of September

The time we possess is merely as long as a glimpse of twilight.

Later in life, these will be the reminiscence of ours,

which dawn the smile on our face and tears in our eyes.

How time flies without our consent,
let’s just grasp hold of what we have in the mean time,
to pursue a better future.
Y'all will always be in my mind,
as I recall these good o’ times.

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Since today’s date is special and it’s once in a lifetime, I decided to commence my first entry and dedicate the theme to mua college close friends in Adelaide. =)

<3
-pRiS-

ps: check out the date and time! (200920092009)
pss: we dont have a decent, proper picture with everyone in it!
psss: thank you for making this possible. =)
pssss: exact 3 years & 4 months. =)

It speaks through my heart

Wait
by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.


"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.


"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."


Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"


He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.


"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.


"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.


"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.


"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.


"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."


"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 19:11

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33