All in Thy's hand.

Fascinated, Delighted, Amazed
When it all dawn on me at once,
My perception is again awaken.
Everything happens for a purpose
especially in Thee's timing.
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I'm in awe on how negligible and little pieces of events that I dont seem to understand why I'd encounter that particular moment become clear. I always believe that everything happens for a purpose. and in fact it does. =)

Last friday I have this peculiar acquaintance who traumatized me (for more info, ask me personally). I didn't know how will it affect me or affect that person at that moment. I thought its just God showed me how my friends cared for me, how our bonding getting stronger and stronger. But it did not just end there. I've been able to use it as a material to talk about in my assignment. I dont know precisely how n when it'll affect the people that I've told or the people that my friends tell them; even more, how our short conversation transform this acquaintance life. It's amazing how this little incident is going to affect many people. Through me nothing is possible, but I believe God arrange in this particular way that events happen is always for a purpose. Maybe we wouldn't see the results or the blooming of flowers now, but I believe one day, it'll come in handy. 

Another instance. I saw a fight today on street. I dont know how should I react. Call the police? walk up to talk to them? But at this crucial time, I chose to walk away. I took the other route to avoid passing them by. I choose the selfish way. I don't know how it ended, hopefully no one got hurt. Though I did not help them, This incident kept playing in my head. It made me think. Especially just 1 or 2 weeks before, my psychology class required us to do an experiment on social behaviour. My psyc teacher mention about some example on people fighting and there is nobody there to help. So I guess today's experience came in handy. =P 

It's fascinating isn't it? I still remember when I was younger I always get thrilled over what I've learn and be able to apply into real life. I still do now. and its good to be once reminded that God put every situation in our lives for a purpose. And that's how we are mould into who we are today. 

Not comprehending, not having the slightest clue why we are going through tough times? So that you'll  adequate for something bigger & greater. We'll be content with what we have every moment. And when the moment u comprehend why such things had happened, u'll be glad. More than glad. 

hold on, there's always a better tomorrow. =)

<3

-pRiS-

I care

Thoughts are like streams rushing and gushing into the ocean Leaving no space to breathe
Succumbing to the pressure exert
Drowning into unconciousness.

A flip, A push or A struggle,
Just a tiny action;
Brought surface back into picture
The effulgent sun never seems so shimmering,
The belligerent wind never seems so refreshing.

Your inquiries brought me into doubt
I seek, I search and I found.
Chances did not allow me to speak
Fast enough for you to understand, to apprehend and to perceive.
And now,
You brought chagrin into the picture.

A flip, A push or A struggle,
Just a tiny act for you to persevere
On what you believe and trust.
But now,
You've turn it all around.

I hope, I wish and I pray
that its all just a fallacious breeze.
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It has been quite some time since I blog let alone attempt a poem. I dont really think its a poem. but still hope its not too bad. Just need to shrug off my thoughts and get back to work. EXAM less than 6 WEEKS. ugh. better go now.

ps: i butt into ur business its just simply bcoz i care n i love all of u.

<3
-pRiS-

love.emptiness.best friend?

Am currently doing psyc research on interpersonal relationship. it brought me thinking why are people searching for love/courship and feel despair when we decided to give up on it. Do we not have the same foundation for us to stay together? I wonder. anyway, the post below was posted at my xanga blog few days ago, when i dint have courage to post it up here. now that i post because it occured to me that if i'm ashame of what i believe, will i be me in front of others? so yeah, there u go.



"
 What do you think the difference about Christians, Sunday Christians and Non-Christians?

Observations taught me that nowadays, many people have this emptiness in their hearts. Yes, we might have many things, yet, something within us is missing. Searching, longing and failing to find this missing piece of our life, i guess, many doesnt know, that the love of God, the presence of God is what fills that emptiness.

Personally, i find myself swaying between true christian and sunday christian/friday ocfer category. I guess thats y, sometimes i felt there's something missing in me, even i'm very happy about something or has achieved something. Then, i'll question myself : "So what now?". The happy, excited or proud moments will eventually come to an end, and become our memories. It is impossible for us to keep the present forever. We couldn't live in our memories, time will move on even without our consent. Whereas, if Jesus is in the picture, we know that it's Him who died for us so that we may live, n have a chance of looking towards eternity. It's Jesus, who took up our cross, our sins, n use his blood to wash away the impurities in us, so that we may be forgiven.

"For God so love the world that he gave his only beloved son, so that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal live." John 3:16

Jesus is the one that will heal our hurts, n fill the emptiness. He will never fail us, even when we are in our deepest darkness. This is what the Lord has promised.

"Even if I go through the deepest darkness, I will not be afraid, Lord, for you are with me. Your shepherd's rod and staff protect me." Psalm 23:4

Me, as a friend to many, i still have a high chance of failing to help out, for i'm still far from perfect. But Jesus is the one best friend that you will never need to be afraid that He'll fail us, for He will always be there.

"And I will be with you always, to the end of the age." Matthew 28:20b                                           "

He hold our hands to walk through the toughest timeS.

<3
-pRiS-

<3

We may have different past,
diverging futures,
but the memories we create will belong to us
and us only.

=)
<3
-pRiS-

PMS

i hate it when it comes to this time of the month.
having mood swings isn't particularly what i need now.
i'd finished the twilight series. The story lines is what i love so much.
I was akin to living in fantasy when i'm in the story.
it felt good. yet i know it's not real.
i sort of felt an emptiness like how things i'm after come to an end.
another reason to further these swings of my mood.
i've to keep in mind that all these are fiction,
no matter how surreal it seemed.
ah, Edward n Bella,
happily ever after.

ps: sorry if my mood affected urs too. i'm really having a hard time dealing with rationality and emotions during this time of the month.